For as long as I can remember, I had a certain vision in mind for what my life would be after I graduated from college. Degree. Job. Boyfriend/long term relationship/whatever. Moving out of my parents house right after graduation. Etc.
I graduated on December 17th. Degree. No job. No relationship. Moving back in with my parents. Life was NOTHING like I thought it would be, and it still isn’t. Let me recap.
Back in October I ran over what I assume was an already dead deer. Had a dealership in BG look at it when I did my tire rotation and they said it was fine. A few weeks later, my car starts making a noise that I know wasn’t there before, but since they had said everything was fine, I assume it’s something different or a one time deal. But the noise started to get worse. Finally, after graduation and Christmas, I take it to a Subaru dealership–without mentioning anything about the deer–and they call with a laundry list of things that need to be fixed because it “looks like you may have hit a deer at some point.” So then I call the insurance and have to take my car to a pre-approved collision center. I do that, I get the estimate, I take the car back to them last week. When they put it up on the rack, they find more things that are damaged, which upped the estimate, which means they had to send it back to my insurance to look at. Then I get the call this morning…since the cost to repair the car would be 75% of the base value, they are required by law to total the car.
So, since Dad works for Nissan, he starts running numbers and looking at models that I may want to consider. I get home from my job interview, we eat, then we go to the dealership to test drive a car I want. Little did I know that I would be making one of the biggest decisions of my life tonight. And I had to do it on my own. Dad was there for moral support, but I had to say yes or no to the sales person all on my own.
I was terrified. Sick to my stomach. Yeah, I can make a decent sized down payment on the car, but still. The idea of a car payment AND a student loan payment terrified me, especially if I’m still at Kroger (hopefully I won’t be, but still). I could do it if I lived at home, rent free, with my parents, using any Kroger pay check I could to go towards the car payment, the student loan payment, and then the rest in savings for when insurance payments come around (conveniently at the end of February right now…right after a new car). But the LAST place I wanted to be as a college graduate was living my parents, even though I love them dearly. But I know that I can handle it if I have to.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m sure when I pick up the new car on Friday, I’ll be like a kid on Christmas, after the shock of “holy crap I just bought a car” wears off. I just honestly can say that this is NOT what I was expecting to have to face in my first couple of months in the real world. It’s the first honest to goodness big girl decision that I have had to make in my post college life…and as Dad put it, the next couple will be buying a house, getting married, having kids, etc…one thing at a time, Daddy dearest. One thing at a time.